I hated my SVT.
I lived in such fear of it.
Every day, all day.
It was all I thought about.
I was crippled from the anticipatory anxiety of a looming episode.
I didn’t want to leave the house, didn’t want to travel, and I didn’t want to be alone with my kids. My mind was constantly thinking about all the worst case scenarios and I spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself and scaring myself.
I never felt well and I longed for relief, but was I in a vicious cycle…
I would eat things to help me forget my troubles and feel momentary relief, but feeling better was short lived, as it always resulted in the same thing…beating myself up for eating something unhealthy and then feeling physically worse (maybe even triggering my SVT)
And then there was the worry. I worried I would have an SVT almost as a punishment for eating something “bad”. Then came the promises to myself that I would eat healthier tomorrow…
…I knew that I couldn’t keep my promises. I just didn’t have the energy that I needed to take better care of myself.
I was STUCK, and exhausted. I was on a hamster wheel. I felt sick and exhausted all the time and I hated my SVT.
I wasn’t just upset over my SVT. I was upset over a lot of things in my life at the time. And although I worked on
myself…every day…I journaled, went to acupuncture, enjoyed reading transformational books, analyzed
my life… it didn’t feel like it was all adding up to what I yearned for. If I really let myself look at the
“Truth”, I felt helpless to change any of the real things that I knew were eating away at me in my life and
compounding the situation.I felt like I couldn’t “FIX” some of the problems that plagued my life for so long…
BUT….Healing…is a way of being. It’s not something that “occurs” and is complete. HEALING is a journey, a process, something we need to tend to forever. Healing is about re-focusing on you, the things that are in YOUR control, the things that you CAN fix, NOT the all the things you can’t. This is important to distinguish, especially if you tend to feel overwhelmed, have past traumas that are impacting your nervous system and don’t know where to start when it comes to healing work…
Healing is a process of making healthy choices for yourself and your life and your energy every single day, every hour, every minute. Those choices, are not just about FOOD…but include self-care, setting boundaries, making your wellness a priority, and nourishing yourself daily in all the ways that feel restful, relaxing and healing.
Healing is a process.
It is a choice.
It can sometimes fell like the harder choice because it requires commitment, trust and truth telling. True healing means looking at painful limiting beliefs, patterns keeping you stuck,
learning to hold space for yourself to process old emotions, re-parent yourself, change limiting behaviors, identify what stops you, embrace yourself with compassion, love yourself as you are right now with all your “issues” and make new commitments. It means being really truthful and not using your SVT to avoid things that you don’t want to confront.
As I reflect back now, on my journey of SVT healing, I can see that in addition to changing my diet, there were 3 things that played a major role in my healing and they all had to do with the emotional, spiritual and energetic layers that I discuss as part of the integrative approach to Healing SVT naturally.
Here are 3 things that helped me overcome my SVT misery:
1. I made a real COMMITMENT and increased my self-TRUST: I was so tired of my SVT and the SVT fear that I felt that I was finally ready to make REAL commitments in my life. I gave up pizza, I committed to being gluten free. I was determined. I kept working hard or as hard as I could at the moment, even though I didn’t always feel immediate relief or see evidence that my work was paying off. I did all of that work TRUSTING that if I did it, and if I kept at it, I would eventaully feel better. I just kept taking steps in what I thought was the right direction. I was like a soldier moving forward blindly until one day, I actually noticed my efforts, self-trust and commitments paying off. Then the results became a part of what fueled my commitments.
2. TRUTH-I started telling the truth. To myself and to others. Even when it wasn’t pretty and I didn’t want to. I especially told the TRUTH in my JOURNALS (a great place to start)!
3. I TRUSTED in the Integrative Process- I trusted that if I did the “nutritional work” that I would eventually feel better and my body would get stronger, my nervous system would re-balance and my stomach issues and gut health would improve. I trusted that one day the health, wealth, vitality and happiness that I dreamed about would be mine. I trusted in the spiritual aspect and that God had a bigger plan for me than to feel sick and miserable in my house every day and that eventually I could feel well enough to use my SVT healing journey to help inspire others. I trusted that one day I would figure out my life purpose and how to feel deeply connected to my intuition.
In order to show the Universe and God that I was a devoted student and that I was choosing to TRUST the integrative healing process, I invested in the continual behaviors and thoughts that would raise my energetic vibration to ATTRACT the things I wanted into my life.
Today, my life is so different than it was back then…
One of the main differences is how little I worry about SVT. I never have SVT anymore. I have years of practicing positive habits that help me with the foundation of SVT Prevention that I have built my life around. I recommit to my health and my values every single day to stay on course. I work on new creative opportunities to reflect the things that I wanted to discuss and spend my time on everyday like creating healing tools and sharing them with others.
I LOVE creating healing tools to help people find the path to SVT freedom and healing.
So…If your SVT is making you miserable, I PROMISE you that it doesn’t have to be like this forever. There are
things that you can do to help yourself. If you want, you can start reflecting on the qualities that I
mentioned that worked for me; Commitment, Truth and Trust.
Ask yourself…
- What am I committed to?
- Do I have daily routine and practices that help me build my Health?
- Do I tell my truth?
- Do I know my truth?
- Do I practice connecting with my heart truth?
- Do I have a spiritual listening practice so that I can HEAR my truth?
- Do I trust my path?
- Do I have a relationship with a higher source?
- Do I trust that my life has a purpose?
- Do I know my purpose?
If you like these type of journaling prompts and self-reflection questions, please download my FREE e-guide called Journaling with your Intuition SVT version. Get it HERE
Wishing you love and healing!
Xo Laura, Your SVT Coach,
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